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Nicotine

by Abigail Knudson

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releases October 1, 2017

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Abigail Knudson is a New Zealand singer and composer.

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Track Name: Honey Don't
Rock on up in your fake fur miserably
Bring just one, take the top bunk odyssey
When she is ready for the big spot
Then the man makes the ego plan
He'll think oh my what if this pretty little missy
Was just mine?

Cos she is a big girl now
She knows that she don't need a man
Cos she is a big girl now
She knows that she don't need his hand

She says
Honey don't you hold me down!
You fuck me up and then you leave
Honey don't you hold me back!
Thinking that you can do as you please
Please, do as you please, do as you please

It's no longer just your democracy
You still believe that you are owed
What you see
But she is getting all the wiser
Learned the tricks, and she learned the trade
And you can't lie your way to
Getting what you want
With her in your place.

She says
Honey don't you hold me down!
You fuck me up and then you leave
Honey don't you hold me back!
Thinking that you can do as you please
Please, do as you please, do as you please
Track Name: Don't Get Me Wrong
Darling this is the start of the end
And I can't play pretend anymore
I can tell that you're getting attached but I can't
give hte feeling back
Oh no

I'm sorry now (this isn't fair to you at all)
I'm sorry now now now (I heard that you're quite liking me)
I'm sorry now (this isn't fair to you at all)
I'm sorry now now now (He's got me wrong!)

Oh No
Don't get me wrong
This isn't love
This isn't love!
No
Don't get me wrong
This isn't love
This is just fun
To me

You're the quicksand
And i'm in the trap
I walked in
So unaware of this

New confession
Do not say the words
I dread them
They feel like a curse to

I'm sorry now (this isn't fair to you at all)
I'm sorry now now now (I heard that you're quite liking me)
I'm sorry now (this isn't fair to you at all)
I'm sorry now now now (He's got me wrong!)

Oh No
Don't get me wrong
This isn't love
This isn't love!
No
Don't get me wrong
This isn't love
This is just fun
To me

Boy I went through everything
And lost my heart along the way!
No, there's nothing left to give
I lost it all along the way

No
Don't get me wrong
This isn't love
This isn't love!
No
Don't get me wrong
This isn't love
This is just fun
To me
Track Name: Nicotine
I'm a natural disaster
The earth cracks where I try to run
And the sound of your laugher
Never knew that this could be fun
Oh i've been afraid
I cannot keep sustained
Let's run away
And do what we may
I've gotten over exposed
To your carcinogen

Cos you taste so sweet
When you're kissing me
Feels like i've been freed
By your energy
Baby you've got me
Please don't think that I can't get enough
Of your sweet Nicotine,
Nicotine,
Sweet Nicotine,
Nicotine

I'm a walking disaster
But you stick by me anyway
We just keep going faster
Neither one will back out the race
Oh I wanna change
Don't wanna keep my name
Babe will you take me
Out of this place
I've gotten over exposed to your
Sweet Nicotine

Cos you taste so sweet
When you're kissing me
Feels like i've been freed
By your energy
Baby you've got me
Please don't think that I can't get enough
Of your sweet Nicotine,
Nicotine,
Sweet Nicotine,
Nicotine

I wanna change
Don't wanna keep my name
I wanna change
Don't wanna keep my name
Oh I wanna change
Don't wanna keep my name
Babe will you take me
Out of this place
I've gotten over exposed to your
Sweet Nicotine

Cos you taste so sweet
When you're kissing me
Feels like i've been freed
By your energy
Baby you've got me
Please don't think that I can't get enough
Of your sweet Nicotine,
Nicotine,
Sweet Nicotine,
Nicotine
Track Name: Missy
Missy ripped her teeth out on a doornail
They're on the floor now
Miss American Beauty Queen
More unique than you've ever seen

Missy's always falling over
It's why she's blue and black and green
Missy's such a clumsy mare i'm not
Sure that she's all there

I'll make you a bargain
A steal a real great deal
Your life for your silence Missy
Your life for your silence, now i'll
I'll make you a bargain
Your life for your silence.

Missy is an absentee
She stayed away from work today
Don't know what that's about
She says she's not so well
I think she needs some help

I'll make you a bargain
A steal a real great deal
Your life for your silence Missy
Your life for your silence, now i'll
I'll make you a bargain
Your life for your silence.

One false move
And she will lose it (all)
One false move
Time to face her doom
Once false move,
Don't make one false move

Missy is an absentee
She stayed away from work today
Don't know what that's about
She says she's not so well
I think she needs some help

I'll make you a bargain
A steal a real great deal
Your life for your silence Missy
Your life for your silence, now i'll
I'll make you a bargain
Your life for your silence.
Track Name: Beautiful
We sell the Coke, the wine
Whole body sexualised
We are in all editions
We want edit-perfection
Pay up, Pay up
All the ideals that hurt the most

We take our sense of worth
And keep it in our purse
Afford an ounce of hope
Tied to a way to cope
Pay up, Pay up
To the ideals that hurt the most

Oh oh oh
It's impossible to be beautiful
Standards too high, it makes me feel
Hard to be real
Oh
It's impossible to be beautiful
Standards too high, it makes me feel
Hard to be real

We worship plastic gods
From our synthetic hearts
Concrete is our addiction
Death to all contradiction
Play up
All the idols that hurt the most

We obviate the truth
Ossify learning youth
With images pristine
Cut to the self-esteem
Pay up, pay up all the idols that hurt the most

Oh oh oh
It's impossible to be beautiful
Standards too high, it makes me feel
Hard to be real
Oh
It's impossible to be beautiful
Standards too high, it makes me feel
Hard to be real

Our bodies aren't edit perfection
We'll never look like the editions
They'll make you whiter, make you thinner
Take your money, money, money
Standards too high

Oh
It's impossible to be beautiful
Standards too high, it makes me feel
Hard to be real
Oh
It's impossible to be beautiful
Standards too high, it makes me feel
Hard to be real
Track Name: Ever Since
Ever Since my baby went away
Thought it would be dark and dreary days
He used to be the only thing I craved
Now I don't know why I ever stayed

Oh
I'm better without you
You always put me down
Now i'm back up
I don't know how I never figured this out
Oh
I'm better without you (better without you)
You always put me down
Now i'm back up
I don't know how I never figured this out

Ever Since my baby went away
I've been feeling better every day
He used to be the only thing I craved
Now I don't know why I ever stayed


Oh
I'm better without you (better without you)
You always put me down
Now i'm back up
I don't know how I never figured this out
Oh
I'm better without you (better without you)
You always put me down
Now i'm back up
I don't know how I never figured this out

Ever Since my baby went away (baby went away, baby went away)
I've been feeling better every day (better every day, better every day)
He used to be the only thing I craved
Now I don't know why I ever stayed


Oh
I'm better without you (better without you)
You always put me down
Now i'm back up
I don't know how I never figured this out
Oh
I'm better without you (better without you)
You always put me down
Now i'm back up
I don't know how I never figured this out
Track Name: I Need Your Love
His eyes are electric, set to win
Just a wave of his hand and I was his
He don't know it,
But even the best of us go down

I've been under this spell 20 years
And i'll never get out, those are my fears
I won't admit it,
But even the best of me was down

We all know
How this one goes
We are being deluded by our achy hearts
I am sure that I want more
He is the apple beaming from my teary eyes
Open wide
And defy your nature

I need your love
I need your love
I need your love
I need your love

At the edge of eccentric, I give in
I've been waiting a wee while just for him
He won't know it
But even the best of us go down

We all know
How this one goes
We are being deluded by our achy hearts
I am sure that I want more
He is the apple beaming from my teary eyes
Open wide
And defy your nature

I need your love
I need your love
I need your love
I need your love
Track Name: Cardboard Heart
Take these cardboard men
And teach them all the lies
That strong girls never cry
Oh we tell them all the time
It takes so much energy
To make your enemies
And keep you happy
Why is it up to me

Pretty I can't dry your eyes
Honey you're a paradigm
Of cotton sheets, coddled years,
You're afraid from it
I am falling hard for life
Honey you're a paradise
Of pretty dreams, candy strings
No escape from it
No escape

I'll play my heart
Like a fucking violin
And then i'll snap all of the strings
The notes will ring
Like a Stradivarius violin
Until there are no more notes to sing

Take this cardboard love
And put it on the fire
Then teach them all the lies
We'll both burn on the pyre
It takes so much energy
To make your enemies
And keep you happy
Why is it up to me!

Pretty I can't dry your eyes
Honey you're a paradigm
Of cotton sheets, coddled years,
You're afraid from it
I am falling hard for life
Honey you're a paradise
Of pretty dreams, candy strings
No escape from it
No escape!

I'll play my heart (my heart)
Like a fucking violin
And then i'll snap all of the strings
The notes will ring (will ring)
Like a Stradivarius violin
Until there are no more notes to sing

Take this cardboard love

I'll play my heart (my heart)
Like a fucking violin
And then i'll snap all of the strings
The notes will ring (will ring)
Like a Stradivarius violin
Until there are no more notes to sing
Track Name: I'm Bad
I'm Bad
I've always been a wild man
And it's tearing me up

I'm scared
Why does it hurt when I care?
I've always been a bad man playing at the good game
I never intended to fall for you
(This is tearing me up)

I am terrified
I know I'll make you cry
But you will never know i'm suffering
And you can make me feel better
It's tearing me up

I'm fake cos
I only got my eyes on the prize
But it's tearing me up

I cry
Because it hurts when I care
I've always been a good man playing at the bad game
I never intended to fall for you

I am terrified
I know I'll make you cry
But you will never know i'm suffering
And you can make me feel better
It's tearing me up

Oh oh there I go
Messing up again
I've always been a bad man playing at the good game
I never intended to fall for you

I am terrified
I know I'll make you cry
But you will never know i'm suffering
And you can make me feel better
It's tearing me up
it's tearing me up
I am terrified
I know I'll make you cry
But you will never know i'm suffering
And you can make me feel better
It's tearing me up
This is tearing me up
Track Name: Are You Coming Home
Are you coming home?
Was that just a joke?
Are you coming home?
Was that just a joke?

I've been waiting, monday, tuesday, wednesday,
Still I believe your lies,
I've been waiting, thursday, friday, still i'm
hoping you might be mine

Are you coming home?
Don't leave me alone,
Are you coming home?

I've waited like a good girl,
Quiet but strong.
Come back home.
Cos i'm such a good girl,
I've got guts, and a mind of my own.

Are you coming home?
Don't leave me alone.
Are you coming home?
Don't leave me alone.
Are you coming home?